Random Rant

So I guess I'm at the acceptance point. Everyone goes through hard times...this is just my time...Its been a really rough month for me. As one of my co-workers puts it....it is a perfect storm. This week also has taught me that I gotta start appreciating little things that pass us by everyday....simple things like gazing at stars while strolling at the beach at night..that was kinda cool...better yet..wishing upon a shooting star :). I know this is a trial...everything happens for a good reason. I'm also reminded that family comes first...I miss them more than I thought I do...

With Bong, things are getting more and more awkward, which I really hate. I feel like I have to watch what I say in front of him. I guess my selfish wish would be for us to be friends just like that...but I realize this needs time...I can only patiently wait without denying that things would be different....I'd rather it to be the beginning of the end than the long goodbye...

HOPEFUL

One can only hope that this perfect storm shall pass. I have always been taught that being tested for your future is part of life. I can only walk forward and think positively. If I fall, I fall forward. Thank you for all of the supports from friends & family. Bong, thank's for the stuffed chicken, it was awesome. Sorry for pushing you away. Don't hate me.

Not knowing vs. wanting

You'll find ways if you want.

Rough week

Seems like I take my good times for granted. Few things have happened since the last time I wrote my blog. Work has been going through some bumpy road lately, especially last week and this week. Even worse, when you're looking forward to enjoying your weekend because of the rough weeks, everything's not going the way I wanted it to be. I feel like I am being tested constantly. I am dealing with it, I just wish I have someone to complain to. Maybe I need this...some time alone by myself to reflect. I don't like myself and my life lately.