I gave up on it. I can't do it. I'm not strong enough...yet...I heard from a friend that more old people are signing up anyway...like their aunts and uncles..and moms and dads...so Facebook ain't cool in my book anymore.
Every time I see his name even only when he 'likes' a status update of our acquaintance gives me a sting. I don't like that feeling at all...worst of all...I got to see his new pictures with his new guy...that feels like taking a punch, like someone is pinching my heart real hard...
So I have to avoid it...whatever it takes for me to move on...GOD! I so wanna move on! I'm so ready...I've been ready!
Time to start checking off that list I made now that I have a JOB...:)
On a brighter note, I finally got my own office!! WOOT! well..I gotta share it with the IT dude but I totally have my own space...exciting!
So for those of you who read this...I love you...you're special...call/text if u wanna say hi...i'm only a phone call away...or email even...I'll give you a personal status update ;)
I haven't written to you for a while...today deserves a celebration..It's Dad's bday, which falls exactly on Father's Day...my sister had a great idea of doing a little video for my Dad just cuz most of us, including my Mom, are here.
Quick translation:
Me: "Happy Birthday, pa. I wish I can look as good as you when I turn 60." Ace: "Happy Birthday, pa. Wish you health and don't work too hard!" Bro in law: "Happy Birthday, pa. Wish you health and prosperity." Calie...self explanatory Kara: "Happy Birthday, grandpa!!!" Mom: "Happy Birthday and wish you great health."
A little update about my life....I FINALLY got a job!! WOOT! and I am starting tomorrow :) I'm really excited because it's what I wanna get into. I'll be in charge of the marketing design of the whole company.
As for the usual stuff...I'm slowly moving on...I think what made it hard was the fact that I was doing my "letting go" on his pace. We were still corresponding, I was still having strong feelings for Bong and he kept it rolling to compensate his lifestyle...I still put him on the pedestal..so when all of the sudden he cuts everything out...it's messing with my balance. Although I broke up with Bong, the reality was my love was being rejected. And I just need to remember that to move on. It's better this way...all the bad things are showing up on the surface to remind me why the relationship failed from the first place.
What's in my thoughts? I'm just SUPER excited to be focusing on my new job :) thank you, GOD!
Apparently, going to bed and waking up in the morning is the shittiest part of the day when you're heart broken.
