the boyfriend that is never happy

yes, that is me....so many goodbyes, sorries, thank yous have been said to you and I just want to let you know that you will always have a special place in my heart. I love you so much til this day and it hurts me to know that I can't be happy and there is nothing we can do to change that. I will have to move on and have that memories stay in my chapter....yonius, the boyfriend that is never happy.

there is still a lot for me to learn. Thank you for teaching me and every good things must come to an end, i guess....this isn't a goodbye...it's a new chapter of both of our lives as friends...I am very much looking forward to that...I know it will happen overtime....time is my only friend...

"It takes no time to fall in love. But it takes you years to know what love is" - Life is Wonderful, Jason Mraz

"If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you. Cause if he doesn't I'll be there." - I'll be there, Jackson 5

I Love You. Very Much.

So today is Thanksgiving day...I have seriously never felt so alone...I think it's because I haven't been home for almost 4 years....A couple of days ago, I've heard the most heart-crushing-makes-me-really-wanna-go-home thing....my mom fell down from the stairs...rolling down...holding Calie...both of them got bruises everywhere...thankfully nothing serious happened...but still...hearing that makes me go very very weak....mom still has a sense of humor while telling me...makes me even more mad...she go "did you hear about mom and calie's kungfu move?".....i swear i think i got my sense of humor from her.....makes me sad when i think about home now...i really miss my family....the fact that my sis is back there doesn't help at all...

On a brighter note, I am thankful for my friends here...they have done anything they can do to make me feel occupied whether they do it intentionally or not...I love them for that...*sigh*

Happy Gobble Gobble you all

Life is too short to be negative

Love,

Yonius

*sigh*

In the words of one of my friends, "L":

"I know you love me. You just don't know how to love me."



well put, my friend...thanks for the in 'n out

focus

I need to focus...
I can't let this whole thing bring me down...
I'm so angry...

I can't wait

to start all over.......


i miss Simba