Counting...

I only have one more week here in Orange County...I feel sad, excited, scared, nervous, stressed...everything in one bowl. It really hasn't hit me yet just cuz I don't have time to actually stop and think about it.

My sis place is a mess but I'm not gonna lie, I kinda enjoy the loneliness. This Christmas I got to spend it with Tinia. She helped me pack and although we didn't do a lot, it was great having a companion on Christmas eve. And then during Christmas day, I got to spend it with Erik, John, Adi and Nita...didn't do anything special..we just went and saw a movie, Sweeney Todd.

I have a feeling I won't be having time to write again until I'm actually up north. New city, new year, new life...I'm counting the days...

Patience is the best remedy for every trouble. --Titus Maccius Plautus

I have this unbearable feelings inside that I don't even know what to do with. I wanna tell you but I am afraid that they come out wrong. I don't know what to say...so I don't. But I know inside of me, there are words waiting to come out. I want to tell you how much I miss you and how much I love you despite my broken heart. And most of all, how I need you in my life and how much I want you. But those words will forever stay in my heart...

I hate break ups. Seriously.

updates

So a lot of stuff happened for the past couple of weeks. Went to San Francisco last week and checked out my new future campus, Golden Gate University. I had a good experience overall. The campus is a lot bigger than my current one and on top of that, the programs are better for the business. I went and took care of my paper works and finally, I got admitted. I will be moving up north on January 2.

Currently I am looking for someone who can sublease my apartment here in OC. On top of that, I'm juggling my finals for next week and packing at the same time. Three weeks is not enough for me. I'm excited but scared at the same time...which I think it's a normal feeling. I can't wait to start fresh in a new year.

I've been pretty occupied with the move, finals, apartment, so I think it's good because it helps me a lot with the coping. Although I miss Bong...I had a nice conversation with one of my closest friend, Andy, and although I know in my heart that I treat some group of friends as my family, sometimes a small talk just confirms that they are the closest of a family that I have here in the U.S.

I constantly say that I miss my family but now, I will truly miss them when I move up north. We learn, we grow, and like what Andy and I were talking about...goals are the only things that keep our lives going. It's going to be a good, bad, but interesting future and I will embrace every second of it.

K, enough for the mushy moment....time to write papers....