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It's cold FYI...L.A. standard cold..hahah

time

Hi blog,

I guess Fall season has officially started...Halloween is right around the corner, right after that, I bet you all the stores are going to put up some Christmas lights and trees...it's crazy how times goes by really fast.

I'm sorry I've been kinda lagging on writing...only because I'm lazy...and I tried writing a couple of times but my mind just wasn't there. I just had Pho and took a 30-min bath, accompanied by Ne-Yo...so now I'm ready haha.

Where do I start? Since my last entry, work has been slowing down. I've been getting off work on time and been going to the gym in the evening now instead of in the morning. I just find myself sleeping later because I have a TV now.

With that, I went to San Francisco for a short vacation. Saw a few of my friends although I wished I could spend more time with some of them. My highlight for that trip was when I walked down to the Muni Station in Powell from Prelita's place by myself, listening to my iPod...I had a chance to kinda relax..and reflect...then I realized...I spent most of my time being sad in San Francisco...trying to get over Nathan....it's like that feeling provoked when you listen to a certain song or watching a certain movie.

Despite the great people and great atmosphere, SF just puts me back into that mood. Sucks I know, but I still loved my experience up there and I wouldn't have done it any other way.

Lately, I've had a couple of friends who reach out to me and tell me about their love troubles...one likes someone who doesn't like him back and he's really discouraged by it and not having a clue what to do...the other one is questioning the world what is wrong with him because he has never been in a relationship before.

I wish I could help them and tell them that everything will be OK and that they will find someone...but honestly, I'm not even sure. All I know is I don't want to be regretting every encounter I have by not taking a chance. I don't want to be that one silly guy who hopes for someone to just show up in front of my door and sweep my feet away.

so Yonius...this is to remind yourself to take chances. Fall..hard..get hurt..because there's that one thing that will heal you when you get hurt: time. It worked healing my first cut :). Although it took me a whole lot longer than the norm, it did heal me at the end.

Then again, time DOES goes by fast, right?

Thanks, time. :)

Just something smile-inducing that I came across...

Come back, Yonius!

I know it's kinda odd but I haven't feeling like I am myself lately. It's like I get to see myself from an outside person's eyes. It's weird. I can't explain but I know I don't like it. Especially in my friendship department....I haven't been a really good friend. Or even when I try, I complain when there's a hiccup.

I need to get back to being Yonius. I think I'm kinda wandering around that it made me lost my true self lately. Hey, at least I realize it right? baby steps...

Had Boiling Crab again today to celebrate Tinia's bday. We actually ordered crab and I cracked one open full of meat, gave it to Tinia who sat right next to me and I say "Happy Birthday" to her...with lots of love :)

You know what it reminded me of though? Nathan...we both love seafood. He used to crack one open for me all the time and gave it to me without even second-thinking about having the meat for himself....for those of you who knows how to crack crab meats...it's not easy...all I'm saying is..a simple gesture of love like that...I miss it. He's a good guy, I must say. We're just not meant to be and I feel OK with it..I also must tell myself that it is OK to miss him sometime.

I took a freakin 3 hours nap during the day today...and with that, a very bizarre dream came with it. I had a PDA moment with a guy...blurry...all I know is that I was so attracted to him in my dreams...this is the kicker...the PDA moment was in front of my parents and my sister...hmmm..hahah

I miss having someone. I think that's a no-brainer. But I'm kinda tired trying too hard to make it happen. Even when you think you are having the greatest connection with someone...in which I have had that experience, it doesn't necessarily mean anything until it happens.

*duh* Yonius...not so genius after all, are you...

Things to look forward to:
- Erik's bday weekend because Adi will be down here.
- my SF weekend a week after that.

I love my co workers. :)