It's gonna hurt when it heals too....

Slap me...

*sigh* this is what you get when you are trying to play with an open wound. I'm officially heartbroken =[

Some So Ca pictures

I'm gonna let the picture tell the stories itself :)

Day 1
Day 2
Day 3

Day 4

it's done

I'm trying this new thing where I don't look back...I hope it works. *sigh* Don't look back, Yonius....DO NOT look back...

PS: Thanks, Dit.

So Cal So Far

I'm hanging out with Erik right now...waiting for his ass to pack his stuff and drive me back down to OC. We started off the day with an intense workout session where we went to this area where it has 185 steps and we went for 8 rounds....seriously intense I could see my sweat dropping after the first climb lol.

Then we went to have lunch at an Indonesian restaurant *pics will be posted soon*, where I saw a lot of my childhood snacks...that was kinda interesting..then we went home and changed...and THEN...we went to see a show taping that's called the Bonnie Hunt Show.

It was interesting although I know Erik and I are NOT the target market lol..she's funny and she had a couple of guest stars Nia Vardalos and Glenn Campbell. Now, just chilling at Erik's place..

I got here on Sunday and Tinia picked me up..and then at night, Bong, Andy, and Emmett picked me up and we went to the new Garden Walk by Disneyland..it was a really nice place. Then we ate at Roy's, spent $40 there for dinner and I honestly think I didn't pay enough...my point is that it was an expensive dinner but it was really good. Then we saw The Bunny House...the movie was pretty funny. Then I spent a night there cuz the next day (Monday) Andy, Bong, and I went to Laguna Beach. Got a little tan there and then they took me back to my sis place.

************* my feelings so far **************

I miss my niece a lot and I felt so loved when she plays with me...I'm happy for that....

I am insecure because I think Bong is moving on and to be quite honest, I haven't...I KNOW..it's been almost one year and I am still honestly emotionally unavailable....I kept telling myself to just face it though...I should be happy if Bong is happy...and I'd rather have bong in my life as a friend then not have my ex at all....I have to be honest, I still can't bear to think the fact that bong will be with someone else.....(thinking happy thoughts right now to distract me)....

Anyways...that's it so far....I'll definitely post some pics soon...I'm using Erik's TV computer with a big ass screen...cool.....catch with you later...

Miscellaneous...

There's a lot of things that I wanna talk about so let me ramble away, blog.........
The majority of this blog content goes to one of my close friends, Prelita...you are one of the strongest woman that I've ever known. I know I've encountered a lot of strong people in my life and I am glad and very proud to add you on my lists of strong people in my life. I will tell you the reason why:

• You cope with your crisis really differently. I loved it when I heard you and Pen talked about your childhood memories involving your families
• You don't dwell.....YOU DEAL with it.....you go, girl
• You really remind me how family is the most important thing in the world..you make me miss my family dearly and that's the only thing that matters...relationships...relationships with one another, relationships with families....relationships with God.

Thank you...and I love you for that. I know for a fact that I will be extremely sad when you're moving back to So Cal.....=(

On a lighter note, another close friends of mine, Ross & Grace, just tied the knot on 08/08/08 in Bali, Indonesia. I was really bummed out that I couldn't make it at their wedding because I was really planning to go. I saw the pictures and it was really beautiful..how I wished I was a part of that special day. I'm glad I'm gonna see them along with my pledge bros in a couple of weeks and give them their wedding gift.

Finals week this week and next week. And then back to OC after that. I honestly can't wait...I miss my niece and I need a break from school. The gloomy weather is kinda getting into me and my sensitivity lol....can't you tell?

TOLD YA I GOT LOTS OF STUFF TO TALK ABOUT!!!!! ha....back to studying.

Pressure

So I'm starting to feel the pressure now. Finals week is coming and I have 3 main papers due, 3 exams and 1 presentation to worry about...not to mention it's been kinda gloomy here in Sunset...doesn't help at all T_T

I HATE childish attitude. I know it's random but *SIGH* it's very frustrating and I need to get over my ex. I NEED to. I HAVE to. Got pictures from rafting today...

chat with Bubba...

you earn your smiles
your victories
your happiness
its not handed to you by society
you make it
that way they can't take it from you at all
they have no claim to it


my thoughts and prayers are with you, P. Love you and Happy Birthday. I know it's hard to celebrate it right now but I want to tell you that it's a blessing for me to have your friendship and I thank your parents for that.