Sunday Evening

Just a little rant...

From Monday to Friday, I bury myself in work stuff, then I normally have plans for the weekend...then Sunday comes. During the day, I can still plan my Sunday like a nice brunch or mini-hiking trips.

But Sunday evening...Sunday evening is the day where you just want to chill, prepping for your Monday to begin...just being lazy...

That's when I feel alone the most.

Not sure if they have a song for Sunday Evening...but if there is, playing one right now would be a perfect addition to how I feel this evening.

Dear Blog,

I haven’t been able to collect my thoughts lately. I think partly it's because I don't feel like sharing/complaining about anything at all.

A lot of things happened such as me turning 28, experiencing my very first car accident (very minor), finished designing my very first published book for my company, and a very reflective birthday weekend getaway.

In all honesty, those experiences seemed just a little petty for me to share. I'm really not sure why. Then I realize how life can be pretty lonely once you get older. I think at a certain age, generally late twenties, all your friends already kinda know where they’re going and they have their own experiences to go through. Perhaps that's why? Maybe I just don't want to come off as a whiner when I have my worries/troubles or to the other extreme, a bragger when good things happen to me.

My need for more gay friends is growing stronger and stronger. It gets lonely if you don’t have someone who understands your sexual preference and identity. Someone to talk to and bounce gay jokes with here and there. It’d be ideal to have my own group of gay friends. I am lonely. I must admit. And I don’t even yearn for that special someone anymore. I just need more friends. Am I whining?

I'm content with where I am, really. I have a job, I drive a nice car, I have a somewhat healthy lifestyle. Really nothing to complain about. Am I bragging?

When my friends ask me "So what's new with you?" I really don't have anything to say...it bugs me for some reason.

Thank goodness I have you.

Love,

Your friend

PS: Giving up Facebook & Downelink for lent...let's see how long this will last. Also, read this. Moved my heart :)