another smoking ad...

Every now and then, I come across ads like this one and it makes me smile...

ABDC season 2

So...i have a favorite team...just for the mere reason that one of the guys in this group has a pretty interesting background....basically his Dad taught him how to do his first wave, which he then relate that to his dancing talent...his Dad is now in comma and basically the whole team was basing his life story as their motto of life, you never know when is your last day....


my highlight on this team:
on the first episode of the new season, the interviewer asked the guy, "if your father was awake right now, what would he say about you dancing for ABDC?" he then answered..."Just like me," relating to the dad's lesson of the first wave he did......

the interviewer continued asking him, "what would you say to him if he's awake now?"...he paused...then answered.."Just like you." short and sweet....that's when i fell in love....i'm voting for this team...

Stupid...

So I am not so sure what was I thinking tonight in my class. We were talking about presentation skills and how to overcome fear and general stuff like that. And so my stupid self had to open my big mouth and say "Well honestly, to overcome nervousness, picture everyone naked. It really relaxes you." The teacher just totally looked at me weird and I don't even wanna know what the entire class thought of me. Just typing it and thinking about it right now still makes me feel so freakin dumb.....*sigh* that was my highlight of the night.....


To make myself feel better, I went to Fisherman's Wharf and got me a Strawberry Chocolate milkshake. It was a full moon. I love my city =)

today

I had an interview...then one of the lady asked me the most basic and simple question, "What inspires you?" then I found myself startled a little bit before I answered it. The first immediate person that pop out of my head was my Dad...and then my mom....and I realized that I was pausing for a couple of second...I didn't want them to wait too long....and so I said...my family.

I find myself relating a lot to my family...throughout this whole time, every step I take here in the United States...let that be in O.C. or S.F., my sole goal is to earn that sense of belonging, a sense of tight-knit group, a family. Although sometimes I forget, I know deep down that my family is my rock. They are the reason why I am still doing what I am doing...striving for my big dream.

I want to make my parents proud. Although I know I'm disappointing them in certain ways. I want them to know that I can still turn out an okay human being with all of the values they have taught me. I know I say this a lot...I really do miss my family. Without them, I wouldn't be as loving as I am right now. That is why I love my friends. Because my family loves me.

not so deep...thoughts...

I have never really put any thoughts into life in general lately and a conversation with a friend has made me realized how my perspective in life is put together. I went to a seminar for International Student at my school to discuss about working opportunities in the United States after I graduate and one thing I realized was that the rules are getting harder and harder. It just seems like the U.S. don't want me to be here...or at least that's how I take it....this has a lot to do with my previous experiences when it comes to trying to stay or come back to the U.S.

At this point, I don't wanna say that I am giving up. I am not, I am still trying my damn best to be here and at the same time, I gotta start thinking about my backup plans....26 is still young, I am lucky to have good friends, good health, and most of all, good and loving family. However, I need to start acting like a man. I can't keep hanging around and taking things day by day although sometimes, that's how you gotta see life.

A conversation with a friend has made me realized that the world is small. I am so glad I'm doing what I am doing right now, going back to grad school. So far, this experience has made me realized that I have lived in a really tiny bubble and that I don't know a lot of stuff outside my bubble. I might move to China or Australia or Canada. The seminar reminded me that this is not my home. Or at least not my home yet. I gotta start plan ahead. However, for now, it's necessary to just enjoy what I have and let it sink in...really deep and take it with me wherever I am going....deep blog...i know...I don't get this too often except when I'm with my close friends...we always talk about life and how human evolve and wanna do bigger and better things...*sigh* I love my friends...they are my family here.

To close up, Lil Andy made my weekend by sharing this video with me...I love Anjelah Johnson.

Plan

I cannot wait to graduate on December so I can start looking for a new job and just concentrate on that. After talking to my Dad over the weekend, I am more determined to finish my school. I've made plans for the next two years...what's gonna happen and what if things go the way I want or if things go the way I don't want em to be...I've got backup plans...let's just hope things go the way I hope....

In the mean time, I am in the process of redesigning my website to look for my new job after Masters school. I'm pumped and excited. =)

We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all

Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
No trouble stayin' occupied

Oh I ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need's another episode
Keep conversation short and sweet because

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause baby it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

You know that it's over when the burnin'
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better

Girl you know it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over